[	mood	|	and sleepy and lustfull	]
[	music	|	redXIII theme	]

I am HAPPY yet dissapointed in myself,
FOR one I finnally ask a girl out with kinda no problem But I am dissapoionted in like 3 or 4 ways I havent been counting soo here I go.
NEVER, NEVER, NEVER trust anyone with relationship secrets.....Ok Les Mis was the play I was assigned lighting operator to and I thought it was great. So not too long ago it was Monday April 19 approximently around 9:05 A Beautiful thing struck my eye. And I found myself dround to it. I was getting deeper and deeper into her eyes I could not bother staying away so I went over and talked to my well ehumm my "friend" Meagan which was coinencidently beside her and were sorta friends..anyways I went over to talk for a while before I had to return to lighting. We got to talking and laughing and what not. While my Lust for this girl kept getting stronger and stronger....then we had to go back to our places for the show...............The next day (Tuesday) I saw her again but before that I talked to Meagan to whom I thought I could trust but was horribly wrong(comes later on in the story) so I was talking to Meagan and I told her my Lust towards this girl and I asked what her name was and it was a nice name which I will keep secretive because I feel like it...where was I.....OH yes I told Meagan about this girl and she told me she was in grade 9(my jaw dropped) (dissapointment)I'm like "I am falling for a grade nine" at that point I needed some reasurence but there was no time had to go to Les Mis.....I get to Les Mis and find that Meagan and the girl are there soo I talked to them on stage while other things go on....now this girl was nice I then asked her for her name (kinda like a intruduction instead of a "Hello 'girl' how is it going and completely freak her out) and we started talking with Meagan around....so the show is now at it's Intermission and I was like time to go and talk to the girl again (YEY) and I talked to her and Meagan but this time I was totally getting this vibe from her that she liked me so I'm like "WAHOOOO SHE LIKES ME!!!!!" because she could not stop standing beside me and looking at me but then errr time to go back to our places....so then comes around Thursday I also tell Sarah who I completly trust which is A GOOD thing so anywho I tell her and ask if it is weird that I like a grade niner and I forgot what she said but she defenently agreed to help me get her E-Mail or phone number or somethin which I was VERY gratefull for her trying....the Les MIS comes again me and Ryan are walking to it through Rock Point park to go to the theater and when we came to the cool part of the trail where the trees make a dome shaped cover I told him about liking her and blah blah blah....soo we get there I am looking, and waiting for the girl to arive so I can get another chance to talk to her well I did but I had the feeling Meagan told her that someone liked her but I wasn't quite sure untill she told me she said that so I was like ummm damn she might take this too far and so I told her I would get Sarah to do the rest so then Les Mis happens and Intermission talking happens...then Les Mis is over and we all go home.....WELLLLL tonight Oh YES tonight the last day I will probably ever talk or see her again so I had to talk to her for a little while more that usual so I was waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting then the show started So me thinking to myself I was sorta worried like is she sick or did she get into an accedent.....welll I was sitting there hoping to see her but she didn't come so we had to start the show without her then the Intermission came I went upstair to see if she was sitting out of the play but she was no where Jen then hands me a flower HOW PERFECT!! so I ask Meagan where is the girl and she's like "I don't know she should be here now" so I thought "How perfect is this I get a flower and this is the last time I will get to see/speak to her and she isn't gonna be at the show I CANNOT BELIEVE THIS" so Intermission then ends and I find my self back at the lighting booth then at the LAST song my eyes then caught the most beautifull thing onstage the girl I had been thinking about eversince I saw her..SHE HAD MADE IT!!! After the show I then walked all the way to the stage (through the back) and told that she was a little late...and then she told me why she was late she was at a dance compitition so I was like nice and we talked for a bit then after talking with her for a while I went upstairs the place where I would now see who my "real" friends were I go up and Sarah hands me a note well accually a news paper article which has a E-Mail address and a phone number, then she told me that Meagan had told the girl that I liked her which I find very fucking rude of her to do so even after I said to Meagan than she cannot tell her that I liked her and if she did she would never be my friend...but soo I had to here this all from Sarah and it got me really pissed off (dissapointment)untill SHE came the girl she walked in and Sarah was quick to leave so we talked about the compitition and what not then I asked her "what are you doing duing the weekend?"(which Sarah has informed to never say that to a girl..noted)(dissapointment) then we talk even more the Martin and Sarah re-enter and Martin makes all of us laugh and what not then we all went down-stairs to talk and soo I grab my bag and we talk as Sarah and Martin start to leave I then ask her if I could take her on a date  she said "I dont know, I'll have to think about it"(dissapointment)...so I sit there on the ride to Olivia's (to tell her this story but in full detail ) I was bitching on how I fucked up and I left the flower upstairs in the control room (dissapointment)
So now I am sitting thinking on WTF I should do write an E-Mail on how I was stupid on asking her out in like the 4 days we've known each other or play it out by talking on E-Mail (she doesn't have MSN messenger)or just forget it (allthough this won't happen to me) but any suggestions I will be happilly to take thanks for listening to me rant and rave about a girl you dont even know the name to well PLEASE REPLY FOR I AM LOST

[	mood	|	flirty	]
[	music	|	Burn Baby Burn	]

NO COMIC THIS TIME :(

I just reallized that when I had RPG Marker for PSX It was the best thing ever sooooo I was wondering if anyone had it and could send it to me via MSN Messenger.....Thanks If ppl need my e-mail it is Kasik0@hotmail.com thanks again.

[	mood	|	sleepy	]
[	music	|	KoRn- A.D.I.D.A.S.	]

<Halarious, and I took this awsome opprotunity to skateboard in the school which was awsome. During the Talent Show Alex decided to pull a Thursday...

      The Best part of the night was pulling a Thursday ok. It started when Alex K. asked the other Alex if he could go Alex said yes so we ran to Jenns car but Jenn didn't come because she didn't know where keys were which were in Alex K.s pants, soo we got busted by Mrs.Gardner(DAMN). I was thinking "noooo now I will never pull a Thusday with Keurvorst but as we were walking back inside some one asked if we were going to pull a Thursday still Alex then said "YES!" It was at that time I was soo pumped. we found Jenn and Shannon and told her the situation, she was kinda upset(I think can't quite remember) but the Jeremy said that we can go out other doors but Alex wanted to solve this "legaly" so we sorta did. We found the other Alex and told him what happend and he let us sneak out through the mini gym doors(OHHHH YEAAA!!!!) Seriously if all of us had a soundtrack in our heads and it was my turn to choose the song "Breaking Rules" by Lucky Boys Confusion would have been the choice I was singing it all the way down the hill to the car. We got in the car and sped to 7-11 and bought Slurpies(double Glups) and then left back for school. As we were going back to school I was then informed that I had the mediocer Thursday(WE HAVE TO PULL A REAL THURSDAY ONE DAY ALEX). When we arived to the school there was someone looking out the window but it didn't phase us, we walked to the Mini Gym doors and knocked on them nothing.......we knocked then a couple more times and still nothing then we remembered other Alex's mother was supervising in the corner so we walked around and we found out that the doors we unlocked so we just walked on in. WHAT A GREAT THURSDAY!!!!!

       Once we got back we then play activities and what not untill people started to sing and play guitar which was very fun, everyone was having a blast. After sing and Me spontanious running to lose energy everyone went and layed their heads to rest but not I, when morning came like 5 or 6 somewhere in between there Alex K. and I played basketball and talked for like 20-30mins then we left and went back to the corner we then talked with Jenn and David and Anita, after this we decided to cause a little trouble by waking people up in rude but funny matters like James Kim.

       When we heard someone snoring SOOO loud we decided to find him and wake him up we then found out it was James Kim Soo Alex went over and kept poking his head untill he woke up then we left and waited till 7:02 MUAHAHAHAHA, this was the second best thing of the 24hr FAST, Alex decided lets go wake people up soo he Imporvised a song I think I still know how some of them go:

It's 7:02,
you have an hour and a half left,
go back to bed,
_______________,
This why the call me,
The Poet.

It's 7:04,
I've come back for more,
(I forgot how this one ends and I could swear there was another but Oh well if any one remembers the lyrics to these songs tell me please)

After wkeing up the whole entire drama room we decided to walk around then we woke up Shane and Joyce, which they denied ever sleeping but later gave in. Alex K., Shane, Jeremy, Joyce and I then sat in the cold gym as we heard the rats in the ceiling run from one side of the gym to the other as Alex sang to us some LBC (Lucky Boys Confusion) and Shane and Jeremy played with the tennis ball, they did stop the rat from running by hitting the vents with the ball, untill David came then they played pass in the gym then we left....(this accually happend before the singing the morning songs.

       Then Alex K. went to bed which was kinda boring but I did hang out with Shane some more then I think shane went some where so I was left with Jeremy I think and I don't know what we did but we did something, so this was the 24hr FAST for the people who didn't come out, By the way the Pankakes were not very warm and the hot chocolate sucked, and the fruit was great.

2004 24hr FAST was a blast

[	mood	|	sleepy	]
[	music	|	Ronnie James Dio-Rainbow in the dark	]

Ok the 24hr FAST was crazyy!!!Like all night was an adventure with the Silly Crew aka. Jenn, Alex, Jeremy, Anita, David, and Shannon. CRAZZYNESS!!! Other people I know are Shane, Joyce, Sam(linkin park man), Marcus, Robin, James, James Kim, Martin, Peter, and others if I spelt any of your names SORRY! The night was probably the best of the year, we Sang, Danced, Laughed, Cried. The night waws full of surprized. The FAST started off with a performance by Peruse which wasn't that bad, once everyone was standing Alex went crazy, it was like the music was takeing over his body or something. After Peruse was done Shane, Jeremy, David and I went outside the play catch which started to turn into a game of "keep the ball away from David" but soon ended because I missed the ball. While we were playing the most crazyest thing happend.....The breaks to the schools bass snaped and went rolling down the hill and crashed into a nearby car which was parked in a drive way, OHH YEA I rolled down the hill, up the curb, demolished a sign and tree, then later geting stoped by a car of a neighbour(who was VERY pissed off). After sitting down and laughing at the situation with members of Peruse, The Blues Rugby team and a couple of friends My friends and I decided to go back inside which we then broke up and went our sepret ways only to meet up again......Shane and I went to the Biology room to play some guitar which we did (learnt a new song by the White Stripes). After this we got bored and set off to a new adventure which was happily enough "THE TALENT SHOW!" The Talent Show was all right lots of people did stuff such as James Kim and Eric singing "Can You Feel The Love Tonight" (which I was hoping to for James and Eric to sing "Can You Rub James Kim Tonight") James Kim also sang "She Bangs" by Ricky Martin like that Chinese singer in "American Idol", then there was a cheerleading thing preformed well by members of Cheer and Dance, there was Improv which Alex Keurvorst out of no where decided to go in and make it more fun by putting a plunger on the head of a girl with her hand in the toilet, there was the Alex, Wesly, Steve dance, the Wesly, Steve, Grame new hit single called "Save the Salmon<

[	mood	|	FUCKK...........	]
[	music	|	Lucky Boys Confusion-City lights	]

OK
Today I realized that my life pretty much sucks, I do like nothing on my weekends, I haven't had a girlfriend in like 2 or 3 yrs and none of them seemed to last more than 5 days which is really sad if you think about it.
Plus my Computer really, really, really , really, really sucks I'd tell you the story but lets just say it took like 1.5 hours to reboot, which is 3 simutanious reboots. SO I really hope my life starts to look better because I feel like I'm missing out on soo much stuff......I'm ever sooo lonely in this world.........and I need someone, I am looking but not sure where to look....If any one knows how to make my life better please reply so I can change it.
Thanks.

AND FOR THE W.N.C.(white ninja comics) I FORGOT HERE THEY ARE.

AND...........the newest.......

[	mood	|	disappointed	]
[	music	|	D-12 - My band untill it changed 2 Kryprios - this is my hit	]

OK NOW FOR THE COMICS I WAS SUPPOSED TO HAVE ON THAT POST BUT COULDN'T DUE TO THE STUPID CAN NOT FIND PAGE ERROR ERR.............IT HAPPEND AGAIN TRYING TO PUT RICH TEXT MODE ON TOO sometimes internet can be such a downer..........

[	mood	|	accomplished	]
[	music	|	The Vines - Ride	]

THIS CARTOON IS JUST FOR ME TO CATCH UP WITH THE NEW WWW.WHITENINJACOMICS.COM COMICS. }:)

[	mood	|	confused	]
[	music	|	AFI-Girls not Grey	]

Why would Bat Man have a whistle????

I also think due to the talk about dreams and what not I think that I;m going to post and I will also number them and try to analize my Dreams on LJ That is if I can remember them?????//////

[	mood	|	depressed	]
[	music	|	Truely Madly Deeply-Savage Garden	]

This Comic from www.whiteninjacomics.com is kinda right now like my life. I'm soooo attached to this one person it's crazy and if only we could ever make music together I will finally be satisfied as a human being. Like when you get attached to a certain someone you usually gain the courage to tell them, but me I will never find the ora where I hide my shyness. Can't I just destroy this shyness and live free to tell her what I am feeling? Wish I could, but now I finally know that she doesn't like me and she probably never will. Like I will never understand why when you like some one alot they always end up liking someone else. It's stupid but I guess I will have to live with her decisions, Right or Wrong I must always be supportive of them because that is what friends are for. But if I ever get that chance to start on the path of meaningful relationships I will never let her go for as of now I am attached and have been since the second day I hung-out with her. One day I will tell her how I really feel toward her and when I do that I must then never talk to her again because our friendship will be silent and awkward. I Love You ( ______ )<<PLACE NAME HERE (for people who know who it is DO NOT POST HER NAME PLEASE DUE TO IT WILL RUIN ME FOREVER :( :( :(

Your my Darkness,
Your my Fire,
Pick me up,
I'm your Desire.

**H1_VLTG3**

[	mood	|	UnKnOwN	]
[	music	|	Stick 'N' Move-Xero	]

I have now decided to start each Live Journal entry with a White Ninja Comic. This is all I wanted to say. :D

IT'S ALRIGHT TURTLE!! IT'S ALRIGHT!! :(

[	mood	|	amused	]
[	music	|	Blink 182-Stay Together for the Kids	]

STEVE:hahahaha you wanna know what is a good web site

JON:Sure

STEVE: www.whiteninjacomics.com

JON:Cool I'll go cheak it out!

STEVE:You do that!